LAST PERSON WHO x. Slept in your bed: me x. Saw you cry: can't remember x. Made you cry: not sure x. You shared a drink with: probably natalie? x. You went to the movies with: natalie, sean x. You went to the mall with: natalie x. Yelled at you: sean sucks at working x. Sent you an email: PcTools x. You kissed: natey
HAVE YOU EVER... x. Said "I Love You" and meant it?: yes x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: no x. Been to New York: yes x. Florida: no x. California: no x. Hawaii:no x. Mexico: no x. China: no x. Canada: no x. Danced naked: no x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: i dont think so x. Wish you were the opposite sex: rarely x. Had an imaginary friend: no x. Things you like in a girl/guy: cool, not fake, natey x. What book are you reading now: read? x. Worst feeling in the world: jealousy/drunken anger x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: food x. Future daughter's name:n/a x. Future son's name: n/a x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: heh, yes. x. What's under your bed: not sure x. Favorite sport to watch: GO TEAM!!!!!!!!! x. Current Age: 19 x. Siblings: no x. Location: maryland x. College plans:no x. Piercings/tattoos: snakebites x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: natey x. Do you do drugs: sometimes a little x. Do you drink: heavily x. Who is your best friend: dont have one, it kind of sucks to not have a normal, see daily, friend x. What are you most scared of: don't have the engery to think of this one x. What clothes do you sleep in: either everything im wearing or just boxers x. Where do you want to get married: n/a x. Who do you really hate: you know if i hate you x. Been in Love: werd x. What type automobile do you drive: n/a x. Do you have a job: of course x. Do you like being around people: better than being alone x. Are you for world peace: can't even imagine it x. Are you a health freak: no
STUFF x. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: i dont think so x. Have you ever cried over someone of the opposite sex: i think so x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: not in particular x. Do you want someone you don't have right now: no x. Are you lonely right now: just bored x. Ever afraid you'll never get married: no x. Do you want to get married: this question should have been before the previous x. Do you want kids: no
FAVORITES x. Room in house: basement x. Color: i've never understood the act of "having a favorite color" x. Month: summer months x. Stone: wtf?
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU... x. Cried: no x. Bought something: yes x. Gotten sick: no x. Sang: no x. Said "I Love You": yes, online x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: uh..i did.. x. Met someone new: no x. Talked to someone: not even going to answer this question x. Missed someone: nateyyyyyyy x. Hugged someone: natey x. Kissed someone: natey x. Fought with your parents: no
so my birthday party was friday. and today, monday, is my actual birthday. the party was just a little bit insane... after about 15-20 shots of rikaloff, i ate an eighth of mushrooms and went fucking crazy.it was the first "bad trip" i've ever had. chris arias was there and drank way way too fucking much. everyone thought he was dying. he wasn't responding or moving and the only thing he was doing was puking all over himself. turned out he was okay the next morning but when you're as fucked up as i was, it's fucking crazy. i was going insane 'cause i thought he was going to die on my birthday party. anyway, thanks everyone for coming, it was fun, i think. so then, today natalie and i decide to go see a movie. the movie didn't start till 5 and it was 4, so we had an hour to kill and decided to walk around the mall. eventually natalie and i made it to hechts, and she saw a keychain and tried to steal it for me. she got caught, and after waiting in front of hechts like those motherfuckers told me to, some faggot comes out and tells me very politely that she is going to be taken home by the police. anyway, that was bullshit, her parents got her and of course shes in trouble. anyway, after all of that she told me that those fucking faggots were saying shit about me, like "how long is he going to wait out there" , "is he that stupid that he doesn't get it". pretty much, i'm going to talk to the manager of hecths tomorrow, or i'm going to find and beat the living shit out of the kid who said that/the kid who caught natalie.
Went to Fredrick today. It's the best redneck town ever. Me and natalie have been there 3 times in the past 3 weeks even though it's like 35 minutes to drive there. We're going to Seattle almost definitely and probably San Fransico on or around June 17th. Oh yeah, my birthday is may 16th so i want some good stuff. I'm bored. Someone besides Natalie and Brandy comment. Not to say that I don't appreciate the fact that they DO comment.
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So today i took out my nose ring and i'm going to let it heal because its too infected. I pierced my lip on the other side today and of course the ring wouldn't fit. That makes 8 seperate holes in my lip that i pierced, that could not fit a ring in them. I'm going to get it all done professionally next friday, but if you can only imagine piercing yourself 8 times for no fucking reason, you'll understand what mood i'm in. I'm really tired and aggravated, i'm going to bed.
I feel so horrible. Last night i made a complete fool out of myself, wasted everyones time, and now my lip is swollen and im having a pretty bad hangover. i asked natalie to pierce my lip and she said she thought she could but she got the needle through and the ring wouldn't fit. that was after i had like 8 beers and a whole fucking bottle of mad dog. i dont even remember how i got home, when i came home, and why my computer looks like someone hit it with a baseball bat. i really need to sleep but i can't. i need to talk to natalie too, and my mom theyre probably pretty mad.
hgjkjhjhgjh and this marks the last time i drink a ton just so i don't feel pain
right now i feel like shit. i feel horrible. i took 2 weird kind of excedrin pills, two no doze pills, after i drank alcohol and washed it down with a red bull. i think it might have soemthing to do with some of that, but i feel really nasueas and horrible. me and natalie almost got caught drinking today, natalies dad came home and we had a 40oz hid about 5 feet away from where he was sitting, and he didn't see it. it was great. im kind of fucked up about how that nick kid died. i usually said whats up to him almost every day in the hallway. im not sad really about it because i wasnt really friends with him, but its just crazy that someone in my classes that i always talked to and knew died. it's crazy and upsetting.. also, theres been a lot of robberys around here lately which scares me, because me and especially natalie walk around on the paths where the robberies and shit are happening. fidel from work was telling me how him and his friends got robbed when they were walking on a path and some fucker had a gun and told them to empty their pockets out. scares the fucking shit out of me to think of something like that happening to ntaalie or something. im definitely not going to want her to walk around on the paths alone anymore. it's getting bad around here.. other than that nothing is new except im working almost every single day and im making a lot of money. my last check before taxes was exactly 600$. im done typing i dont feel good...
im playing the sims. i haven't been doing shit lately. really nothing. im so mad at my work because my boss is so fucking inconsiderate. he had a talk with me just to find out where i was and what i thought of working there and i was like its fine i just dont want to work every single night during the week so i still have time to do stuff and he was like okay. then, this week im scheduled to close every night except wednesday. fuck im mad. but anyway i've been seeing natalie a lot which is good and always makes things more tolerable. lately i've been thinking a lot about how i dont really know how much longer i could stand living here in columbia with my dad. all that is in columbia is places to spend your money and houses and lots of police. i want to go to a real city. columbia is a fake plastic town trying to be ahead of everyone else. first things first and thats the lisence. then the car, which shouldnt be a problem. then, even if needed to leave this place absolutely i could stay somewhere or live in the car... then comes applying for section8 so i can get a temporary shitty apartment until i decide what job im going to do for a while that will support me and ...who knows. i'll take the begining of my life getting started as when i get my lisence. but until then i'll be miserable. anyway i went to get my tatto 3 seperate times but it never happened, either because BODY FX (fuckers) are always busy and obviously dont want my money, or because the other place i went to wanted a little too much money then i had, but this wednesday is probably going to be for sure. don't ask me what it's going to be, you'll all see soon enough. i love natalie and im really tired and about to go to sleep and wake up to the rest of this hellish week. bye fagz
i just wanted everyone to know that i hate whining. by whining i'm not tlaking about someone saying that something hurts or theyre not feeling good or theyre not in a good mood. by whining i mean every fucking day, everything the person says, every single word, is about how theyre so upset about something so fucking stupid, and it's usually said just to get people to feel bad for them. it fucking makes me sick.if your life is that bad, kill yourself. seriously, i don't want anyone to commit suicide, but the things some people say and do for sympathy makes me want to slit my own wrists. do you not think people notice youre just begging for attention and sympathy? these are the people that make this world so fucking miserable to live in. and then there's the morons who sympathize with them. "i'm sooo sorryy" "I hope you feel better" sure, there's nothing wrong with that. but after howevery many days weeks months you fucking whine and complain, no matter how many people say 'i'm so sorry' they're fucking lying. they're saying it because they don't want to hurt your bitch feelings...well im just here to say fuck you kill yourselves and stop whining. your life isn't really that bad, you fuckass. i don't give a shit how many boys cheated on you or how bad you like this cute guy and he doesn't notice you, youre all fucking scum get the fuck over it. if you have all your limbs and you have enough food to get you through the day your life isn't that bad. once again im not saying its wrong to bitch when shit happens and it pisses you off and wanna talk about it, but when all you say and do is whine and bitch about the same fucking things, uh..maybe you should uhhh stop putting yourselves into those situations? the world isn't out to get you, youre just a moron who craves attention. stop whining. ...( i have a feeling i know exactly who is going to reply to this post, and try to prove me wrong, but these are probably the fucks who this post is dedicated to)
oh yeah today i saw natalie and bought some cd's it was fun and i love natalie
about to go to work...natalie is back. :) that's always good. missed her too much.. uhhh im working and sitting int he house every day and seeing natalie. i thoght i had a good post with lots of things to say but i was wrong so that's it, the end. oh yea and i like friend chicken. im fucking gay..
i miss natalie too much. this place isn't the same without her here. i hate how she's always gone. dodgeball was alright. lots of people showed up. lots of people i hated. it was like 30 mins of dodgeball and like 4 hours of people tlaking and fucking around. there was a lot of people. it was alright. saw devin colin ricky brandon which i don't see a lot. there was a lot of couples and shit . not fair. i want my chamorro back =/
anyway, nothing really happening latley. i'm a shift leader now at subway again, and i got my raise. natalie is gone for 2 weeks which is of course not good. going to have nothing to do. i'm listening to blink182 right now, and they always put me in a good mood. went to a party at liz' house a couple nights ago. and then because someone decided they werent going to call their mom and tell her what's up, their mom went to my house and told my dad about how i do drugs? apparently she knows that with meeting me once? also, somehow apaprently she knows about a party that was supposed to happen friday night and told all of my friends parents and told all of them how me and sean and natalie do drugs. all in all i learned younger kids can be fun to hang out with but i need to avoid those fuckers who whine and bitch and dont drink because theyre just gonna fuck everyone up and ruin shit. enough bitching about those fuckers. anyway i miss hanging out with brandon and them. dont know what theyve been up to be we need to hang out more. i miss natalie. the end.
you have been formally invited to dodgeball on friday night at howard high at 7:00pm. gonna be fun.
last night was crazy. drank at a park with gebhart natalie mike sean heather and some girl, then went to long reach village center, bought some pot, sat at the park and ate food, went to some golf course with a bunch of people i hated, minus the ones listed above, smoked a LOT of pot, drank a little bit, matt dropped us off at the abandoned trailer behind giant and we got like 1 hour of sleep, and now im here still with only like 3 hours of sleep. BUT WARPED TOUR IS TOMORROW!!!!!!!